Crying while writing this. Trying not to wet the page. It used to be me and you sitting on the sofa outside. Now its Sis and Jiaming. ☹ The reason why i went back today is to hope that it would be sectionals. Indeed it was sectionals. Sat on the floor and watch you teach, as usual. Tried my best to help you with Alex.. But i dont think im of much help. Sorry. But you actually smiled and laugh during sectionals. It made me smiled along with you even though i was really tired. I feel that "as long as i can see you smile, its worth doing anything". Really. Im on cloud nine. Even if its for that moment. Stayed and totally forgot the time. Stayed in school for study date till 8pm. I wasn't really concentrating because your face kept flashing before my eyes. But i guess that happy feeling doesn't last forever. Was feeling very upset since i left band. Is it because i finally felt a little closer? At least i felt that its something familar when you smiled. After i left, i thought about you. Like always, i have this little hope in me that you will text me. Maybe i should stop dreaming. Yeah. Alright, sis came into the room with her boyf... Time to be an emonemo. I love you.


Sillygirl